Observing loneliness
These days I felt alone, it was one of those days when I was so tired that the last thing I wanted was to socialize. My social battery was exhausted and I knew that calling someone to talk or leave would just make me more worn, and I couldn't be truly present with the person. So I decided to be alone. In this, I realized that even unintentionally, I have the impulse to try to fix loneliness “Isn't it good to call someone? So let's read a book, let's see a series. ” I noticed that I was constantly looking for something to distract me from that feeling. I realized, with some sadness, that I actively tried to be open to the experience of connecting with other people, but I was not open to feeling the loneliness that seemed unpleasant. So I set out to look at her. ...
April 23, 2024